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Friday, February 01, 2008

The phrase,

You win some, you lose some;
In order to achieve something, you have to sacrifice another thing.

That, is so true.

My work has actually made me forget about those whom are important.
My work has made me miss out on the various pleasures of life.
My work has made me miss the simple little things of life.

Its been coming to 5 years now that I have actually made so much sacrifices for the evil in the form of money.
Its been 5 years since I actually sincerely had a heart.
Its been 5 years since I really had feelings for someone.
Its been 5 years since I have really gone into a REAL relationship (technically, if you don't count the other not so serious ones)



However,

My work has given me so much I can achieve.
My work has given me such a skyrocketing position in the corporate calender.
My work has given me a secure position for my career path and progression
My work has potentially given me the path which I could move into my dream life with my materialistic wants.

Imagine this,

Your boss really wants you to go back after army.
You are actually being scouted by even other companies to work for them in the future.
You are constantly being praised for having so much ability and potential that would benefit anyone or any company that I work at.
An environment where the term, "The harder you work, the more you rise and earn" actually is the basis of success.
Office politics are nothing if you are capable.
Respect from colleagues as an efficient and capable individual.


Things that I sacrifice.

Time with Family,
Time with Friends,
Time with loved ones,
Time to further my piano studies
Time to learn different languages
Time to travel around the World
Time to explore life

These are always the simple and happy essentials of life. Only provided if in that society, cash is NOT the most essential thing. However, sad to say, Singapore is truly that type of society where cash determines almost everything.


I truly want to apologize for all of the happenings in the past,
I'm sorry to the ones that I have hurt.
I'm sorry to the ones that I have neglected,
I'm sorry to the ones that really care,
I'm sorry to the ones that I had taken for granted...


However, I am really glad to constantly have the support of,
Bros,
Sec sch peeps,
Htmers,
parents,
Friends,
Colleagues...

The time I have now is so limited that it is to an extent, pathetic. However, my environment now is the fastest for my career advancement and monetary gain. Working at my pace enables me to own my preferred car, house and other materialistic needs by months, not years.

I feel that I sincerely need to have a reason or motivation to reignite my drive. Hopefully, I can find a reason to finally have feelings again. I realize I have been far too heartless for too long. However, the cliche element is that it is only in that form, that I make the wisest decisions.


Give me a reason please, give me a reason....

Mesmerized within time...
6:02 PM