My inner sanctum.

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Well, almost all of e projs EXCEPT for psycho presentation and econs portfolio finished... ah... monday have that stupid extra comm skills class... zZz... oh well... all to prepare for this coming friday's summative test.... but after that, it would be preps for e main exams... well.. lookin for study kakis to go back to study lo!!! haha.. but oh well... juz came back from carlton.. working... kinda disappointed at the way certain things are going on now... but oh well... i juz wan $$!!! lolx... reason? TP HTM D&D!!! haha... song bO!!!!

sat midnight transport juz now... well, was thinkin about various stuffs... like how life is going on now and etc. well, can say that sth is missing... but i am not sure what it is though... maybe its love?? LOL!! no la... dunno lehx... juz feel like sth is missing... =/

to all JAE / Interested in poly de... COME TRY FOR HTM!! haha... but HT< is mainly for those enthu de ppl... and outgoing de... in short, hospi is fun... though there are lotsa projs, but still, cause my batch is based on interview de... doin projs is actually fun!!! haha.. but sadly, this coming intake is based on JAE... so well, if you are not so socialble person... sorrry la.. but i would recommend you to take another course.. not to say wad though... but htm is really fot those outgoing and socialble de...

imagine... going to sentosa to study @ year 2!!! SO EXCITING!!!! LOL!! really gonna haf fun there though.. but time seems to past real fast... well, dunno why lehx.. but.. time really flies... soon, i will be goin to army le... haix.. life is just so short... but one confession.. i kinda like my current class.. but oh well, haix... hear gonna change class again.. sadded... hope gt at least linda (mummy) and co. in same class as me.. LOL!!!

well, gonna work at 6pm later... will be taking my pig slp now... niteZ!!!

Mesmerized within time...

2:49 AM

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Well, have been a while since i have last blogged... MmMm... not much has been going on recently.. been pretty busy wif e projs and stuffs.. presentations all this week... well, what is left for me is online comm skills which i will be doing later and offline comm skills which i will be doing tomorrow... followed on is econs... =/

feel like goin to the D&D sias... but i wanna jio more ppl go... =/ oh well.. see ba.. in a way, its kinda wierd since it would be at carlton... oh well, i am a young boy.. i juz wanna have fun!

well, going back to work this sat and sun... will be back to maroon again.. due to some dunno wad cost cutting thing la... nvm... dun care.. as long as gt $$ can le.. LOL!! ok la.. i am this realistic... can work on that though...

i really wanna go to sentosa again! damn... i really gotta get an equal tan otherwise my wrists... -.-"" whose whom have seen it know what i mean.. LOL!! oh well... gt this strange feeling of loneliness? dunno lehx... kinda gt this feeling... maybe i thinkin too much ba... ot nt enough slp!! haha.. oh well...

despite all my wants etc, the thing which i wan maybe the most apart from social fullfillment, would be to learn e piano again... somehow, its been back to part of my life le... maybe i will relearn and get off from grade 5? lolx... hope i can get into grade 8 ba!!! haha.. though its still a dream... =/ tml... dunno wad i will be doin thoug... a bit wierd also sias... =/ somehow, its really hot and sunny lately... heard there was some fire at sengkang cause it was too dry? dunno wads happening wif e world also.. well, all e pollution and stuffs... yeah... but... well, =/ somehow, hopes it rains soon? i miss e feeling of juz staring into e rain le... oh well...

Now Listening to this new blog song of mine!! haha... not bad wor!!! =P

Mesmerized within time...

9:57 PM

Sunday, February 20, 2005

May this week go extremely smoothly for me.. all e presentations are here!!

Mesmerized within time...

10:57 PM

I kinda hate taking money from my parents... in fact... i dun ask for it unless i am really desperate... well, now, i can say that... reason? i am not working anymore... thus, i need to depend on them.. moreover, i nvr took a single cent from my parents since i have started working.. pls correct me if i am wrong... cause i am not working now.. am i wrong to ask for allowance or money from them? or am i overboard when i ask them to give me more when they only gimme a pathetic $5? when they have more than $200-300 in their wallets? what can i do with $5? eat shit?

things change now.. cause i am not workin and stuff... i haf to depend on them... i ask from my mum, my mum ask me to take from my dad... then when i ask from my dad, he asks me to take from my mum.. then the cycle continues... i am sick and tired of all of this pushing ard already... the both of you are WORKING NOW!! and i am hearing things from the both of you ppl... mum says that dad keeps gambling and stuff at his "Lover's" place or what crap... losing money like an idiot to those ppl... i know its rude for me to call my dad that.. but that is wad my mum said...

Dad says that everything is he pay one... all e shit and stuff... and that my mum only dedicates her time on the karaoke... and constantly wasting money on cab, etc. cause she takes 240 wherever she go... and she only eats "high class" food... wadever... i dun really wanna give a damn anymore...

Had a little dispute with my mum juz now cause i asked her to pay for my psycho book... i dun really know e price.. then she asked me how much.. i said i dunno... then she say if i dunno then i dun need the book... can someone enlighten me about this logic here?

so my parents expect me to continue to live on my own and not take a single cent from them.. so this is interesting... i am not working... so i wait for money to fall off the sky? or they expect me to go changi village to sell my ass? i feel that this is extremely a big load of crap...

Maybe i am selfish or what... i dun really give a damn on what they do.. i realize that they dun treeat me as their son or wadeva and they only mainly think of themselves.. and when i ask my mum for a bit of cash.. she says i am always bullying her... cause i always ask her for money... Hmmm... this is really interesting... well, sincerely... i know they kinda think of me as a burden to them le... which gives me the conclusion... why did they give birth to me in the 1st place?

Mesmerized within time...

1:39 AM

Friday, February 18, 2005

Today was the 1st day of TP's open house! and the start of the HTM SKIT! haha.. well, all i can say is great job guyS! haha... 4 shows.. 2 shows almost filled, the other 2 was flooded wif ppl... =D but sad ah... nvr see any chio bu leh!!!! =X

well, somehow, someway, somthing is missing... i need to find out what it is... =/

Mesmerized within time...

1:33 AM

Thursday, February 17, 2005

watched MTV Cribs just now on my computer... wow... travis from blink 182... dude... his house is really awesome sias... I LIKE THE look-lik-those-sand-coloured-rocks theme!!! plus one more thing which is aw3esom... its just next to the beach!!! Damn... lucky guy... his house e interior is also awesome sias... compared it with Master P's crib... and Babyface's crib.. well, theirs is the deiinition of luxury.. imagine... $3 million dollars for Master P's master bedroom.. -.-"" this shows you how rich american artistes are... oh boy.. i can only live that fantasy in the SIMS 2... zZz... wish i can get a house like that though... its really beautiful.. together with the beachside grill and bar with 4 LCD tv's and a mega surround sound system.. can really party sia!!! argh...

feels like sth is missing in my life.. well, 3 things... hmmm... but what are they ne? =/

sth else i discovered... recently like gt lotsa stars sias... !!!! though i am not really sure if they are satellites.. LOL!!

Now Listening to S.H.E - Never Mind... argh... this song is really sad....

Mesmerized within time...

1:32 AM

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

things ain't really going well as it seems to be... well, my psychology assignment which i had done so painfully in the computer lab... well, i had to redo it cause it was gone... -.-"" 4 pages leh!!!! all gt words leh!!! zZz... did it again today.. managed to get 2 pages done.. but bad news... forgot the ideas that were generated yesterday... arGh!!!

took my bus stats assignment today... did not know there was even one... but sad though.. mummy nvr came for the 5% weightage assignment... oh well... so did ah ma... see la! avril sick she still come do.. haha.. can take her as my role model liao.. LOL!! things went rather smoothly.. but i dun wanna be overconfident... hope i can get full marks though.. went to do proj after that.. not much though.. we are at the finishing phase le... met raquel at the LT outside.. FINALLY SAW HER LIAO!! not cause i miss her la... but cause of PSYCHOLOGY!@!!! i was doing her part for the group proj as well.. so at that point of time... she nvr did anything.. but its understandable cause i offered to do her part for typing cause she did not haf net at home... well, juz pass up my 1st draft to her.. let her add some ideas.. well, that will be it... psycho finishing on sunday.. HOPEFULLY!!!

next up, skit... well, i can seriously say i really cannot act as that gay role.. really glad that last min i changed roles wif kai... i think i am more suitable to be an ah beng.. LOL!! more me la i think? but hey!! i am not an ah beng!!! haha.. juz not natural for me to be an ah gua la... kinda forced myself to do it... well, it kinda seems that the htm skit and the booths dun really haf enough manpower... hope by tml can find enough ppl or sth... then everything will go smooth for open house... tml is the real full rehearsal le wor.. hope i can perform up to their expectations... really haven done that in quite some time le.. well, yeah...

thought about some things just now... also thought about my work place at carlton... kinda feel like really going back work.. but the circumstances dun allow me to... well, if they wanna continue to be so biased and only select ppl that will bootlick the management... and not those whom really can work.. let it be... but wif rina as coordinator i think? chances of more capable ppl working would be higher... at least she is much better than michelle.. not that i am critisicing her or what but.. she still has a lot to learn still... even life skills... if she continues like that and does not improve.. she will forever be a lapdog... well, that's it... the main things i miss about carlton is well, eric and alan... and the kio sai process i always had to do... the relations with the people there between me and them were also good... lotsa stuff i would like to comment on but... some things are better off not said...

well, better get back to more psychology... been really busy in sch lately cause of projs and stuffs.. presentations and all due soon.. exam coming soon.. but wif hols coming.. well, =/

Mesmerized within time...

1:19 AM

Sunday, February 13, 2005

dammit... chinese new year..
lost lotsa money.. zZz...
stupid sias.. but oh well..
haix... Watched s.h.e's
jin zhong zhao tie bu shan mtv
juz now.. really thought of some
stuff sias... wierd...
somehow, imagine if i was in e
role of hebe... MmMmMm... hard
to imagine right?? but somehow,
i really cannot help but to wonder..
MmMmM... Long time no
update blog le.. LOL!! cause
kinda no time b4... was workin
and stuffs... but since now is the
off peak period... will take some
time off for myself juz like s.h.e
are taking their vacation!
MmMm... but one diff...
still gt lotsa projs and stuff haf to
pia and stuffs.. zZz.. will be finishing
it all by sunday... Monday Vday wor...
but gt sch... only haf econs lec...
maybe after that gt group meeting
also? dunno also sias... argh....
wonder if that daay cfm can go out notz... =/

Mesmerized within time...

1:58 PM