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Sunday, February 25, 2007

i dreamt of a typhoon hitting singapore last night. The buildings toppled like dominos. I only remember myself being so damn relieved upon hearing my mum's voice over the phone....

and i witnessed the crescent of a red planet distinctively before it fading a way within minutes.

Is this a sign? =/

Mesmerized within time...
4:30 AM



i dreamt of a typhoon hitting singapore last night. The buildings toppled like dominos. I only remember myself being so damn relieved upon hearing my mum's voice over the phone....

and i witnessed the crescent of a red planet distinctively before it fading a way within minutes.

Is this a sign? =/

Mesmerized within time...
4:30 AM


Saturday, February 24, 2007

ok... lost my phone... LOL! GUYS!!! pls gimme your number through MSN!

went back to work today at Iggy's for the kick of it... LOL!! WAS DAMN SLACK TODAY!!!! basically, I have noted a few details which are quite funny....

1) FADLI!!! DUN PUT AN ACT CUTE RINGTONE LA!!!! LOL!!!!!

2) Ian... dun chee hong maybelle la... HAHA!!!!

3) JJ.. pls stay faithful to your bf... dun go cheehong the damn shuai french gay couple you gayboY!!!

4) Chef actually asked IGGY if JJ could suck his dick..... IGGY said sure!!! np... do video it pls... O_O!!!!!! WTF!!! LOL!!!!!

5) today at work we were typically smacking the damned fruitflies... damn slack today... LOL!!!! played friendster wif the computer also... zZz... LOL!!!!

6) there was this guest who brought his bitch for dinner today.. finished 3/4 of the chateau fuisse by the 3rd bloody course... and HAS BEEN DRUNK SINCE!!!!!

ok... let me explain certain stuffs on dining etiquette..

1) U DUN BLOODY FINISH YOUR BOTTLE OF RED WINE BY THE 3RD COURSE!!! or wadeva!!!! YOU ONLY FINISH IT AFTER THE MAIN COURSE!!!!! unless you gt multiple bottles of wines....

2) u dun bloody leave the food down there for 20 mins and not touch it and then complain that its cold....

3) we are a fine dining establishment.... pls dun use your hands to eat the damned chanterelle mushrooms!!!!!

4) dun scoop your food which has dropped onto the table then scrape it up like some hawker centre and then EAT IT!!!!

5) dun do the above if you are having an intimate dinner with your other half... be it guy, gal, bapok... wadeva...


dammit... i starting sip on 1st march..... GOD BLESS ME! NNB!!!!!

Mesmerized within time...
2:09 AM


Friday, February 23, 2007

MY STAR SIGN!!!!


Sagittarius Famous Sagittarian personalities include Winston Churchill, who wrote, "It is better to be making the news than taking it; to be an actor rather than a critic." This seems to sum up at least one important aspect of the Sagittarian character, which is the desire to be constantly active and involved in life. People born under this sign often like to travel, to change jobs fairly often, or to take up different interests at different times and then drop them in favor of something else. This should not be seen as frivolity or inconsistency, but rather as a sign of tremendous vitality and a mind which has the ability to encompass many concerns. When a Sagittarian discovers a matter of significance, he or she is quite willing and able to pour all the necessary attention and energy into it. Sagittarians are known for vivacity, a zestful spirit, and a seemingly tireless energy which enables them to accomplish many great things.

Sagittarius Zodiac Sign - ruled by Jupiter.
Your Sun Zodiac sign may not best describe your sagittarius characteristics and general qualities which you bring to life. For many people, their Ascendant or its planetary ruler is the more obvious characteristic, or sometimes the Moon sign. Your Sun sign, rather, says more about the direction you should be moving in, so as to make the contribution to humanity you were born to make, and thus achieve a degree of personal fulfilment.


Sagittarius characteristics are witness to the importance of deriving meaning from experience. From experience, that is, not from books, though reading the thoughts and searches for meaning of others can help in the quest. Consider the symbol or glyph for Sagittarius - a centaur. The rear half is that of a horse and the front half that of a human. The horse symbolises animal instinct - it isn't the rear half for nothing! The human symbolises the search for that which lies beyond animal instinct. The two are always together - meaning, philosophy, religion, are divorced from instinct at their peril. Then you get the philosophers and preachers who exhibit great powers of mind but cannot touch the heart.


Sagittarius follows Scorpio in the zodiac, and if there are significant planets in Scorpio in your chart, or if Scorpio is your Rising sign, or if Pluto (the co-ruler of Scorpio) is strongly placed, then you will know all about the necessity to live fully at the level of experience.

Sagittarius is a fire sign, and like the other fire signs, Aries and Leo, needs freedom of movement. This need is particularly highlighted in Sagittarius by its emergence from the intensity of Scorpio.


Sometimes the search for meaning out of experience manifests as an escape from a sultry swamp into more spacious territory!


Travel is one traditional Sagittarian way of broadening one's horizons. If you are close to someone whose chart is strong in Sagittarian energy and wish him or her to remain faithful, then you are more likely to retain compatibility if you recognise this need to escape at regular intervals.


Significant planets, e.g. the Moon or Venus, in Capricorn in your chart would indicate that you are frequently drawn towards situations which you may find limiting in a way you experience as alien.


Love relationships may be scenarios in which you feel restricted from living life to the full, with the freedom you may feel is appropriate to you. But such features in your chart would show that some part of your nature longs for containment of some kind, even the freedom to live life within safe boundaries for a time.


MY CHINESWE ZODIAC SIGN!!!

Element: Wood Heading: East Color: Pale Green Yin/Yang: Yin/Yang balanced Chinese Name: TU Meaning: Peace Sign Order: Fourth Season: Spring Favorable Month: March Counterpart: Pisces Friend: Goat, Pig Foe: Rooster

RABBIT BABY:Everyone loves a rabbit, they’re cuddly cute and full of fun. You can take almost everything you think about rabbits and apply it to your new born astrological Rabbit.
It is a fact that the Rabbit baby is more likely than any other sign to have hordes of women crowding around making strange cooing noises. This is because the Rabbit infant simply oozes cute appeal. However, as well as being the most appealing baby on the block the Rabbit is also wise beyond its years.
Even before the Rabbit is in Kindergarten he or she will have understood more about the way the world works on an emotional level than most adults. The Rabbit can often be a quiet child and is sometimes quite shy, but this is not a worry because its easy going nature means that the Rabbit will always have friends.


COMPATABILITY MATCH!!!!

Sagittarius is traditionally compatible with Leo, Aries, Libra, Aquarius, and Gemini. With Leo being the most compatible of them all. -___-###

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Sagittarius

Aries
Wizard Says:You both like independence. If you can agree to make a commitment, this is a harmonious relationship with an understanding partner.



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Sagittarius

Taurus
Wizard Says:Sagittarius prizes independence. Taurus seeks stability. This relationship can be a success if you don't try to change each other.



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Sagittarius

Sagittarius
Wizard Says:This is either a dream or a nightmare. When you're in agreement, nothing could be more perfect. When you disagree, you have the know-how to make each other equally miserable. If you can avoid competition, there's a passionate attraction.



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Sagittarius

Gemini
Wizard Says:You are more alike than you think. This is a relationship that will never grow dull, for as you grow more familiar with each other you also reveal new surprises.

Wizard Says:At first, you may seem all wrong for each other. You may prefer someone more spontaneous, who can appreciate your wilder side. On the other hand, this is someone who can offer you lots of love and comfort.



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Sagittarius

Leo
Wizard Says:If you can avoid the power struggles, this relationship will be a lot of fun. A Leo partner can match your natural energy level, and has enough charm and humor to keep you entertained for hours on end.



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Sagittarius

Virgo
Wizard Says:Your disagreements aren't as important as the qualities you have to offer each other. This is someone who can always offer the advice and wisdom you need.



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Sagittarius

Libra
Wizard Says:There's a long-lasting mutual fascination in this relationship. Sagittarius likes to make big plans, and Libra has the good judgment needed to make them work.



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Sagittarius

Scorpio
Wizard Says:You're strongly attracted, but don't really understand each other. To make the relationship work, you'll have to agree to disagree.



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Sagittarius

Capricorn
Wizard Says:A Capricorn partner can teach you the persistence you need to make your dreams come true. With your style and your partner's strength, you're an unbeatable combination.



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Sagittarius

Aquarius
Wizard Says:You both have high standards and the ability meet them. Mutual respect and recognition of each other's talents leads to physical attraction.



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Sagittarius

Pisces
Wizard Says:You inspire each other in all the best ways. You agree on many things, yet are different enough to keep surprising each other quite pleasantly for years to come.


Mesmerized within time...
3:44 AM


Saturday, February 17, 2007

dammit... went through a few of the carlton team's blogs... LOL!!! i really miss those ppl!!!!!

from the days that we were noob... to the bonding of nutz.... to the additions of yingying, kat, rina, dennis, alwin... those were the happy days.. LOL!!!

1 phrase still stands... HAO LI HAI IS STILL THE BEST!!! LOL!!!

cheers to the graduating batch of 2003!!!! LOL!!!!

damn!!! BOLING!!! I WAN THAT PIC I TOOK WIF YOU!!! LOL!!! ok.. shit... guo wei will kill me.. LOL!!!

Mesmerized within time...
8:42 PM



song bo... now at my grannie's place just finished preparing the bloody food for 30 ppl... LOL!!! the kitchen was like a mad house sia... chinese food is always tougher to prepare... zZz... you need like bloody 4 hours just for the soup to be done! for western soups... 1 hr is enough for most types of soups... LOL!!!! dammit... anywho, i did some pan fried fish maw with a cream sauce and tomato cubes... bacon wrapped prawn mousse asparagus... cod teriyaki... and the legendary teapot pork stew... LOL!!!! dammit... my aunts are like awesome la... they machiam everything also know.. i feel so noob there... zzz... but not bad la... we did manage to finish our annual style buffet.. NOW! I AM GONNA EAT!!! REST AND THEN CHIONG FOR A MARATHON 36 HOUR MAHJONG SESSION!!! *hopefully.. LOL!!!

Mesmerized within time...
7:56 PM


Friday, February 16, 2007

Vday was damn fun!!! though incestful... zZz... HAHA!!!! Really hope you enjoyed yourself!! HAHA!!! LETS GO CHIONG SUSHI TEI ONCE MORE!!! dammit.. the food was like awesome la!!! HAHA!!!! lalalaas....

Anywho, i have not slept in like 2 days... CAUSE OF THE BLOODY PROJECTS!!! HAHA!!!! anywho, ITS OVER@@ for the moment till the presentations. HAHA!!!! anyways... issit a trend for middle aged ppl to go clubbing!?!?! O_O!!!! MY MUM JUST BLOODY WENT TO ST.JAMES POWERHOUSE LA!!!

Mesmerized within time...
2:06 AM


Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Those words are the lyrics to the song, I'll remember you. That was a song that was sent to me by shunwei... LOL!!! I'm currently hooked onto this song as i await grace to send me that song tmr!!!!! I still miss the past.. Though its been almost a year, I'll still remember you. =] and baby thats forever true... even till today.. you're the one that i'll always miss... and i still missing you now... =] I'll be there no matter what you're going through...

and this post is for my beloved Yang Shun Wei!!! HAHA!!! somehow, i know its wierd, but i just wanna say this!!! LOL!!!! Forever baby, I'll remember you.. HAHA!

HAPPY VDAY TO ALL!!!!

Mesmerized within time...
4:15 AM



It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember you,and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you, no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried

You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways
You made me believethat I can do almost anything
You stood right by methrough the tears through everything
I'll remember yooooou,and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always missnever thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou, no matter what your goin' throughin my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
If the day should come when you need someone(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let therebe a doubt in your mind 'cause I'll remember you, you
I'll remember you,and baby that's forever trueyou're the one that
I'll always missnever thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you, no matter what your goin' throughin my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
Forever baby, I'll remember you

Mesmerized within time...
4:03 AM


Sunday, February 11, 2007

Now, i bring to you a song that ting sent me... LOL!!!!

2 FacedWritten by Louise/M Ellis/J Morrison

(Who does she think she is?)
(I dunno)
(Do you reckon they're real?)
(Nah)
(Hi, girls)
(Hi, Louise, you look great)

Ow, ow, twisted and deceitful
All those two-faced people
Taking me for some kind of fool
Ow, ow, pretending to be so nice
Let me give you my advice
I don't need you, ooh
Friends in disguise

Dressed up in lies
It's an act that you're playing
Ow, ow, first you recognise me
Then you criticise me, what's goin' on
Stop your bitchin''
Cos you're so sad
Bitchin' behind my back
Honey I don't need that
So kick it to the curb
Because I heard you're two-faced
Tryin' to get in my place
Work too hard to make mistakes
So stop your bitchin' on me
Ow, ow, they're so narrow-minded
Truth is so one-sided
They're just counterfeits
Ow, ow, hot and cold you're blowing
Keep them walls closed
And who are you trying to kid, eh?
Two-faced people are so shallow
Put yourself in my place
Ow, ow, the fairy-tales you're spinning
Sounding so convincingBut I'm at a loss
Stop your bitchin''
Cos you're so sad
Bitchin' behind my back
Honey I don't need that
So kick it to the curb
Because I heard you're two-faced
Tryin' to get in my place
Work too hard to make mistakes
So stop your bitchin' on me
Poison words are spoken
My faith in you is broken
But I'll make it on my own
Ow, ow, twisted and deceitful
All those two-faced people
Taking me for some kind of fool
Ow, ow, they're so narrow-minded
Truth is so one-sided
But honey you're wrong
Stop your bitchin
''Cos you're so sadBitchin' behind my back
Honey I don't need thatSo kick it to the curb
Because I heard you're two-faced
Tryin' to get in my place
Work too hard to make mistakes
So stop your bitchin' on me
Stop your bitchin
''Cos you're so sadBitchin' behind my back
Honey I don't need thatSo kick it to the curb
Because I heard you're two-faced
Tryin' to get in my place
Work too hard to make mistakes
So stop your bitchin' on me
Stop this hypocrisy
You're criticising me'
Cos I don't wanna be
With two-faced people, yeah
(Ya, know, she's probably talking behind our backs right now)
(She probably is, she's like that)(She's two-faced)
(You never know what she's gonna say, hahaha)
(I can't believe you said that about me)
(Believe it, honey)

Mesmerized within time...
4:24 AM



She told me to live for the moment... i did so ever since... never regretted a single moment... =] MOS ANYTIME SOON!!!! WAHAHAHHA!~!!! damn... pls dun let my flirtatious instincts get back... HAHA!!! Im gonna risk my ankle to go back to LA connection... Live for the moment baby!

Mesmerized within time...
4:22 AM


Saturday, February 10, 2007

The most dangerous trait in the world would be with perceptions. Perceptions are constantly changed with every passing comment and remark. However, what would maintain a firm sense of perception within an individual would be with the actual encounter of the situation by themselves.

Why are Singaporean Chinese so biased against China people? When most of the local chinese population actually originated either directly, or indirectly there. It is mainly due to the perceptions that are imprinted onto our heads that they are lazy, have a low sense of hygiene, the list would just go on. However, none has really encountered face on with the working style an attitude of a Chinese immigrant. They are indeed hardworking when there is a strong need to do so. For hygiene factors, I would list the Chinese working in a hotel as an example. They do not bathe at home. However, they bathe in the hotel's employee changing room where shower facilities are provided. They are in fact, saving more money which is quite a thrifty move.

Therefore, believe in yourself, believe in what you experience hands on. Don't be trapped into a world of mistaken opinions. Though I am a catholic cum shinto-ist, I would stress this. Kill the Buddha as you meet him. Kill the Father as you meet him. Never be intimidated nor influenced by anyone but your own heart. Live life the way you want to just because of your desires, not others.

Mesmerized within time...
11:09 PM


Friday, February 09, 2007

To be honest, i still remain quite an enigma to people who know me. Honestly, its rather hard to figure out what i am thinking. So just wait for an answer if you really want one. =]

U can always try to figure out what i am thinking, just dun get trapped into an array of thoughts that would confuse even the calmest you. The piano has been my source for thoughts since I was 4 years old. It still is now. It will be in the future. It has been my life aspiration to become a composer. I still worry it is just a facade and a figment of reality.

Mesmerized within time...
4:25 AM



She called me at 3am.. thats like around 3pm in Toronto. It was like a magical experience. Never did i thought that a conversation like this would happen again. But I was seriously glad that I had stayed up pondering about certain stuffs. It has been almost close to 18 months since I had last seen her as she came back home. Lots of things had happened during this time frame, and indeed, many things have changed. To be honest, i will admit this at this point of time. If she wants me to do so, I will pack up everything and leave for Toronto. I would probably try to emigrate there if i could. However, I do realize that not everything would be a smooth way to go. Memories of us just gliding along our peak, falling down from our stairs, just everything. I thought i had found a similar person some time ago. However, it did struck me at one point, you still can't be replaced regardless. I still do keep our neoprints tucked and locked away as i do cherish the memories that we had together. I did not want to forget an important part of my life. I do admit that since you left, I had found quite a few to try to take your place. However, the feeling was never like that before. I really hate myself for deleting my former blog just to try forgetting the emptiness that I had experienced directly after you had left. However, it was a move that would help me move on.

What was said just now during the phone call was really something that gave me tears of joy. But at the same time, it reopened the emptiness that i had experienced. However, this shall be a time when i try to be strong and kill off all those negative emotions. I am currently facing quite a few stuffs. But the bright thing was during the journey home with Tricia, many things were opened up and re-analyzed. Bui eh told me once not to be so flirt. To be honest, that is embedded into my blood. I always constantly challenge myself to do different sweet things to girls. However, i do make it clear and i distinguish that its quite normal for me to do so. The reason for this is because of the things that i did for you in the past, made you so happy. Probably that is the reason to why i am doing it now. However, it is not the same. This year's Valentine's I shall be spending it with someone. But honestly, our Valentine's is still the best in my opinion. The piano at the esplanade library, to dinner at Ma Maison, with me playing our song, the surprise of the rose petal decorated heart shaped box of chocolates I made, together with the glass collage you made of us, it can't be simply just forgotten like that. To be honest, I dun even think i may do it for other girls, not any that i know of.

Once again, I am enclosed into my own mirage lullaby.

Mesmerized within time...
4:02 AM


Thursday, February 08, 2007

Went back to work for 2 days now... However today, as we had finished fast, we had some time to relax... Once more, i remembered the fun things that happened in the past... from the time when i started work at ritz carlton back at 2003, till the time when i went back again to ritz at 2006... many things happened during that time... But i shall sum up the places where i did work during those times....

1) Furama Hotel,
2) Carlton Hotel,
3) Marina Mandarin Hotel Singapore,
4) Orchard Hotel,
5) Pan Pacific Hotel
6) Holiday Inn Parkview Hotel
7) Swissotel
8) Raffles Hotel
9) Shangri-La Hotel
10) NUSS
11) Ritz Carlton Millenia Singapore
12) Topman / Topshop
13) Robinsons
14) Creative Eateries
15) Al Dente Trattoria
16) Raffles Grill
17) Iggy's
18) Sodexho @ Insead School of Business


damn... i miss those memories....

Mesmerized within time...
12:47 AM


Tuesday, February 06, 2007

I find myself at my brother's desktop typing this entry... many thoughts are coming back.... I will once again converse in hiragana...

息もできないほど打ち拉がれしゃがみ込んだ歩き続けて来た道のまん中で
誰のせいでもなく情けない自分にいつか見たあの夢の破片が涙になる
粉雪が舞うような夜を抱きしめて 頬を濡らそう何も見えない暗闇の果てに 重なってく
傷ついた躰は時間の川で癒せるけどいつのまにか 見失った「自分らしさ」は過去の忘れもの
叶わない夢でも歩いてみたかった情熱で報われる孤独を信じていた
粉雪が揺れながら白く染めたこの夜の中で眠れないのは壊れそうだから
粉雪と舞うように夜を抱きしめて 頬を濡らそう何も見えない暗闇の果てに 重なってく
重なってく 重なってく
誰かに愛されたくて愛されなくて自分を愛せずにいた目を閉じるとまわりから全て何もかも消えそうだったさびしさをまぎらわそうと色んなことをした気付くとたった一人笑う事も忘れていたなんとなく分かってた昔見た夢は夢でしかないとつまらない事はしたくない背中を丸め地面を見て歩く日の光をあびない白い肌は疲れきっていた何をしていても時間は過ぎてゆく

these sums up what's happening now... =]

Mesmerized within time...
2:48 AM


Monday, February 05, 2007

5 YEARS AGO!..........................

How old were you?: 14 years old.
Which school did you went?: Hao Li Hai
Where did you work?: For my aunt at a LAN shop!!! =D
Where did you live?: Hougang
Where did you hangout?: Hougang Mall and Junction 8 i think? I NEVER WENT TO TOWN!!! LOL!!!
What was your hair style?: never style hair.. LOL!
Did you wear braces?: Nope
Did you wear glasses?: nah...
Who was your best friend?: Yuting, daphne, wanwen, shafinah, wenli, elin, nicole, shujun, karen, weibing, tianying, the bball team!!! generally, the 4 express classes? LOL!!
Who was your regular-person crush?: aye... dun haf leh.... teacher counted anot... LOL!!!
Who was your celebrity crush?: SELINA!! =D
How many tattoos did you have?: None.
How many piercings did you have?: NONE!!! HAHA!!!
What car did you drive?: the go-kart at escape theme park... LOL!!!
What was your favorite band/group?: S.H.E!!!!!
What was your worst fear?: gg to pang sai....
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: nah... LOL!!!
Had you driven yet?: i said alr la juz now!!! the go kart!!! dammit!!!
Had you been arrested?: nah.....
Had you been to a real party yet?: YA!! LOL!!!!
Had your heart broken?: nah....
Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: taken


NOW : 2007!

How old are you?: 19 years.
What grade are you in?: FINAL YEAR IN TP!!!!
Where do you go to school?: TP
Where do you work?: gg to pico work now for sip lor...
Where do you live?: HOUGANG!!! WE LOVE HAMMERS!!!!
Where do you hang out?: the entire country... LOL!!!
What is your hair style?: highlighted styled hair...
Do you have braces?: nah.. my teeth are nice... LOL!
Do you wear glasses?: nah... but sometimes wear for fun... LOL!!!
Who is your best friend?: Boon, nic, kimmie chew, yang... LOL!!!
Still talk to any of your old friends?: gt catch up la... ai zai!
Who is your celebrity crush?: Lee Hyori and aikawa nanase... LOL!
How many piercings do you have: 1... LOL!
How many tattoos?: None
What kind of car do you have?: BMW... if i drive my cousin's car.. LOL!!!
What is your favorite band/group?: nt really leh..... LOL!!!
What is your biggest fear: getting my ass poked by ba poks... LOL!!!
Have you been arrested since?: nah.....
Has your heart been broken?: nt really actually...
Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: its complicated... LOL!!!!!

dammit... so many LOL!!!!!!

Mesmerized within time...
4:20 AM


Sunday, February 04, 2007

I have begun to dwelve myself into songs which I was so crazy over a few years ago.. I have once again sunk myself into an isolation of mirage lullabies... Memories of the past has come back... Yet, I am not closing myself out... Never would I do that again... It is time again.. To throw away the present, seek out the past and ignite the future...


On a simpler note,

I AM STILL COUGHING LIKE A MAD MAN!!!!! -_-$$$

Mesmerized within time...
5:07 PM



Woot! I am currently coughing like a mad man here!!! But anywho, i just had an inspiration to start another story!!! =D something i have not done in quite a while... =]


The past was still shining in her head, as she moved on from her shattering experience back in her old home in Adelaide. Memories depicting the two of them still lingers clearly at the back of her head. However, ever since she had made that decision, it was a point which she could never turn back on. Nothing could stop her, not even him anymore.

She had moved onto Oslo, Northern theatre where she would eventually expand her music education with one of the premiere composers of the world, Yoshiyuki eatyoursushi. Sushi, as his close peers would call him, had created tunes that inspired millions of people together. He had also elevated new up and coming artistes like Lene Marlin, M2M and Bjork. Sushi was truly a genius in the music world and getting a chance to learn from one of the best in the world was truly a dream come true for her.

However, even the best have their queer sides. Being jealous and depressed constantly, was a way that sushi could attain a magnificent level of music to broadcast to the world. Amazing as it is, but sad, being always negative has actually brought out the best in him.

She was thrilled upon meeting him on the first day. However, she had a wierd feeling about the learning course as he did not even look into her eyes as they met. She had settled into Sushi's mansion as she started off in her journey to her path in life, music. She was introduced to the many types of technologies and instruments that sushi had in his place and she was thrilled that he had a top notch state of the art music production studio at the comfort of his own home.

A few weeks had passed as she explored and learnt more techniques from the sushi. However, she was still unsuccessful in creating a piece which would be up to sushi's strict standards. Thus, to seek inspiration, she began to explore the property that sushi had to the advice of the butlers and chambermaids at the service of sushi. She had chanced upon this lake surprisingly and she was immediately taken away into a serene world of her own. There, she had once again remembered his eyes, his embrace, his shoulders and the care that he had given so selflessly to her. She had teared once more as she looked back onto a life that she should have moved on as she left Adelaide and his arms. She then began to drown herself into a chain of deep thoughts until sushi came out and offered her some sashimi, starting off a beautiful conversation between the two. Laughters were filled among the entire conversation as she began to lighten up from her past memories.

A sad case to why she constantly teared would be due to the fact that he was suffering from fatal pnuemonia and was going to pass on any moment now. However, a selfless decision to dump her for the sake of her music career was just too heartbreaking even till today. She had missed the chance to see him at the very last moment as he had passed on peacefully at the hospital.

A few weeks turned out for the better as she had not only understood sushi better, but she has also found brand new inspiration for what would be potentially a worldwide smash tune. More time passed by and before she even realized it, she had developed feelings for sushi. He had won her over with his charm. Soon after, they spent more and more time together and they were a couple with her 4th month at the house. She was given the exact same treatment as she recieved from him at Adelaide. She was happy. She was exhilarated. She was blessed. However, a queer revelation occurred suddenly. her sixth sense told her that he was near her presence. She could feel him once more. She got into a state of shock.

After nearly a week of anxiousness, she had decided to tell sushi about the feeling she had. She was scared out of her wits. But little did she know, the shock of her life would actually come in the form of what he was going to tell her in a moment................................................................................................................................................................................







PART 2 WILL COME SOON!!! =D

Mesmerized within time...
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