My inner sanctum.

Monday, December 31, 2007

PLS LEMMI WIN TOTO!!!!!!!

Mesmerized within time...

3:44 AM

Sunday, December 30, 2007

sians... MAN U lost to west ham... wah lau... CR... PLS TRAIN YOUR PENALTY SHOTS!!!!

sai la... now trailing 2 points from top of table....

On a lighter note, in avoiding probable mistakes that I have committed before.. I choose NOT to whack but to say i'm sorry to you, Ashley..

I do feel really honoured... But trust me... I aint a good person to be in a relationship with... you deserve better... yep... Besides, you have plenty of suitors for you... =]

Probably that night was a mistake... Perhaps...

TANNING TOMORROW... kns... LOL!

Mesmerized within time...

4:16 AM

Thursday, December 27, 2007

I need to be stronger....

I need to lose weight....

Just when I thought I had moved on, I was so wrong...

I seriously like my blog song... it has all of the emotions that I wanna experience out now... Everything by Lifehouse.... Probably cause you're really all that I want, All that I need, You're everything... Everything....

Went Mambo tonight.. ITS SO MUCH BETTER THAN PHUTURE!!!

ok la... i old liao.. LOL!

Mesmerized within time...

6:03 AM

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Really thanks to bros for the FUN bday party!!! Really did not expect it dudes.. thanks! Its been more than 7 years and its still growing!!! =D

Its always comforting to see familiar faces from Holy high.. Always drops me a smile... =]

Mesmerized within time...

3:17 AM

Monday, December 17, 2007

Suddenly, I had a random thought.

Is having too much experience bad? Maybe it has become the case for me. Working too much day to day, ignoring the simple pleasures of life, understanding how ugly the real world is, developing an instinct which is related directly to money and success.

So as I thought. I recall the times when I was at Japan. Life there was tough too. Depression and stress caught up with the office class. Thus leading to the decreasing birth rate there. Economic development was rapid there. But not all was good.

Soon after, average stress levels has risen to an all time high. Many social problems has surfaced. People have become so realistic and materialistic that their standard and cost of living is insane. It has become to a standard that so many high school students have a desire to end their lives just because they do not have or can't afford a PS3 or even an LV wallet. Many more have turned into paid dating whereby stressed adults pay these high school kids just to have artificial love. More have even resulted to prostitution just to maintain the high standard of living. To be honest, the mindset that girls are just for that purpose is quite common in quite a lot of Japanese despo freaks.

They can't totally be blamed too. Its in the Japanese culture that they are follow up extremely fast with trends. An example would be when the Americans first landed at Japan in the early 1920s. Rapid industrialization occurred and as the World was unable to keep up with the rapid industrialization of Japan, where they proved that they were more superior than Europeans, the Eastern chaos was created in the form of the Axis Japan's World War 2 efforts. Probably a food for thought may come in the form of the root of all evil coming in the form of the distant America. Bearing in mind that this topic may become controversial and I may end up shot dead by FBI Agents, I shall not proceed any further.

The reason of having this thought in my head would be due to the fact that Singapore is vastly similar to the Japanese in many ways. It is and will be soon if stress levels continue to increase.

For some reason, I feel that ITE aint the end. ITE would probably be the place where stupid people can actually pay more attention to the simple pleasures of life. Despite the fact that they could never really have a fully exciting life where money can buy the pleasures they so desire, they get to really relax and lepak one corner.

This topic would eventually get controversial. Thus, I shall go eat my sausages now and do a duet with the pig living to me next door. Until tomorrow Rainie Yang. =]

Mesmerized within time...

8:43 PM

Thursday, December 13, 2007

I am now kana suaned that I now go crub only sit one corner and drink.. -_-""

Mesmerized within time...

11:35 PM

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

You understand me, at least you say you do, lately thats enough for me. Looking for perfect, surrounded by artifical. You're the cloest thing to real I've seen, sure everyone has their problems, thats a given. Yours are the easiest to tolerate, this wasn't what we was wantin, how we're living? Well lets take this good enough and turn it to great, Baby understand...

This can only be as good as we both make it, guess sometimes its gonna hurt, yes sometimes its gonna hurt. We can be as happy as we want to be girl, but we gotta make it work. We gotta make it work.

Sometimes I love you, more than you'll ever know, other times you get on my nerves. Thats just reality, no it can't always be, kisses, hugs, and beautiful words. You was looking for your prince, What you found was a pauper with potential. And no, I'm no where near perfect, but I'm around. Girl time and patience is essential.

Baby realize... This can only be as good as we both make it. Guess sometimes its gonna hurt. We can be as happy as we want to be girl. But we gotta make it work We gotta make it work...

Thick and thin, the bad outweighs the good sometimes, that doesn't mean we're suppose to give it up. My problems are yours, and yours are mine oh yeaahh. This can only be as good as we both make it. Guess sometimes its gonna hurt. We can be as happy as we want to be girl, but we gotta make it work...

Mesmerized within time...

7:26 PM

Probably I should be devoid of any feelings. The more feelings I have, the weaker I become. When that happens, I am unable to make the most idealistic of decisions that I could. I would not be able to capitalize on situations and opportunities as I would previously like to. People have mentioned that I have changed.

Maybe I have.

Its hard for me to regain those humane feelings that I used to have anymore. I've turned back to what I was 2 years ago.

The realistic individual.

The ability to climb the career ladder in the fastest manner made possible. The ability to capture the attention of those with power. The ability to utilize power to create the ideal situations. The persuasive ability with the aid of vocal capabilities. For some reason, that has become my primary objective. My primary objective for life.

As previously penned down, I have really NO sex drive. No more dancing at the clubs, etc. Just sitting down and drinking while laying out my thoughts for what I should do to create ideal situations for career issues, client issues, etc. Cigarettes has become my source for inspiration. Despite the health concerns that it would bring about, I am still unable to bring myself to quit. Probably, its the only thing that is keeping me sane.

Understanding the mind is always important. However, I find it a daunting task even to understand myself sometimes. To enter the corporate battlefield, devoid of all emotions has become common in society.

In Japan right now, at my hometown, "suicide clubs" are being formed for individuals to commit suicide with a total stranger. Intruiging as it may seem, Singapore would have a 73% chance of encountering that situation as global competition toughens up. Unknowing to many, Singapore has already entered the same paths of Japan's social problem equation.

1) More Materialistic individuals whereby a teenager demands at least a branded item like "Louis Vuitton" & "Gucci" in their collection of fashion accessories.

2) The society has become to a stage amidst the mind of youngsters where one night stands are extremely common. Personally, I have never been in one myself. However, with the sight of so many one night stands just randomly popping up. Amazing as it may be, I am truly astounded by that fact.

3) Stress levels in companies are always rising whereas workload is probably even dropping. Maybe it has always been the same. However, most of the younger generation are pampered individuals.

Thus, we can compare a sales executive working 10 years ago with the same workload, coping with ease, compared to an individual today, with the same amount of workload, feeling that it is far too much for them. A few months later, that individual would quit the company while citing stress levels as an excuse.

Sad? Isn't it? Probably the happiest people are the tribespeople. But the World is fair. They have a simple and happy life. Their main worry is about food. We have a pampered life. Our main worry is sustaining that pampered life. So which is better?

Mesmerized within time...

6:21 PM

It always hurts when not only you are not appreciated for what you have busted your ass out for... but people take it for granted.. Maybe I should have left for Japan anyways..

Mesmerized within time...

12:17 AM

Thursday, December 06, 2007

why do i play with feelings so easily?

On another note,

December & January Schedule

- F1 cocktail event
- TP Open House
- Israel Pavilion @ Singapore Airshow
- Volvo Aero @ Singapore Airshow

MORE definitely to come... -_-

Mesmerized within time...

10:24 AM

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

WHY I SO BO ENG!??!?!?!

I AM SUPPOSED TO BE ONLY BO ENG AT NOVEMBER!!! KNS!

Mesmerized within time...

3:08 PM