Thursday, September 27, 2007
Fuck... Its the busy period again..
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7:29 PM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
| You Are An ENFP |
 You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts. At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused |
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3:46 PM
I seriously have not recieved a long day just for myself in weeks. I WANNA TAN!!! LOL!!!! Been goin back when the sun sets = only can moontan... zZzzzzz........ -_-""
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2:55 PM
Monday, September 24, 2007
what am i doin... Livin life day by day... workin day by day...
Honestly, I have not been catchin up with friends nor even going out. The only time i have is late at night, where clubbing is the only option. Staying in office until late at night has become a norm for me... What is it for? For cash? Not really, its more about the experience and passion I guess. Looking at the perks present for me if I join back, I really want to make an impact and work hard now. I really dislike this quality of mine, my need for materialistic items as well as the desire to constantly live the high life.
Fortunately, IF I join back and work hard, and hit a target of $2million revenue per year, I would get a rough commission of 6% provided if I manage my costs and gross profits well. That would work out to getting $120,000. Of course, that amount is tough even for an experienced sales person. Its good even if I hit $1million!
Sometimes, I do wanna cry when i listen to my current blog song. The reason would be because its everything that symbolizes 2 people whom have feelings for each other but cant be together. I somehow wanna fall in love again. Just to un-numb my heart which has become cold over the years. However, I can't seem to let myself do that. At least for now. Probably its because of fear, fear of being controlled without freedom.
I remember a story that my parents told me about really experiencing life. To be honest, I found it quite hilarious that they actually wanted to talk to me about not working so much. Today, I kind of regretted not heeding their advice. To be honest, I have not experienced life which has been fun as much as I wanted. Working my ass off just for something called money to satisfy my materialistic urges which I throw away after a while. All the brands, all the high life, for what? I really do wonder to myself.
I do not have much time left, I have yet to travel to Spain. Army is still a long way more to go, Everything kinda sucks a lot. To be honest, I have not celebrated my birthday in a long long time. I have always avoided celebrating it for some reason. Why? I seriously wonder why.
Everything kinda really is demoralising now. I kinda need a motivational drive again. Something that will rekindle that burning flame within me. Music has always sustained the dwindling fire. But it cant last forever.
Forever...
I am still caught within my mirage lullaby..... I need someone to get me out. Fast.
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7:11 PM
Friday, September 21, 2007
Being in a relationship does not mean that you would gain happiness. Rarely people do understand the feeling of being forced into a marriage. I wanna get out from it. I wanna just breakaway....
I'LL SPREAD MY WINGS AND I'LL LEARN HOW TO FLY!!!!!
and breakawaY!!!!!!!
dang... still too high...
BA WITA BA DA DANG DA DANG DIGGY DIGGY!!!!!
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11:25 AM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
S-O-N-G SONG!
19/9/2007
I will remember this day because I HAVE FINALLY RECIEVED MY LETTER FOR GRADUATION!!
On the downside, the ceremony would take place at May 2008... zZz...
Back on the lightside, I am getting my Honda Integra soon!!!!!
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7:28 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Let me stay with you even if it hurts both of us.
Why must I always demand so much?
Don't you know my heart could never stay put.
There's simply only one love I want. Believing in miracles we can come across I go on playing a melody for you.
Even if I end up losing everything. This feeling is forever, It's my truth. Believe in yourself even when you stumble. Wipe your tears as you walk on Open up your heart beyond the memories, surely. There is a hope we call tomorrow.
Give me your loneliness and I'll give you my tenderness. Don't forget the dream we saw that day. Even if we're separated, in this heart I will feel you forever.
It's my truth, Your whisper reaches the scattered stars Illuminating my confused heart In every encounter and farewell, what people search for is this strong bond that will unite them someday All the sadness throughout the world If it's for you, I can take it all in.
Even if the whole world deserts me I believe in those eyes, It's my truth .
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3:26 AM
Adding to my collection of alcoholic beverages, joining the exotic Absolut 100 comes ABSOLUT PEAR!!! =D LOL!! and I shall move onto Bacardi flavoured for now. =]
Downing at least a corona a day at an average of 21 bottles a fortnight has really made me feel less stressed out at work. I always believe that having a clear head would improve my work performance and increase the number of creative ideas I can put out in my mind. To be honest, its not the ideal way but at least it keeps me going. =]
I have finally had the whole of Saturday to myself to recharge my batteries! constant sleeping time lengths of 3 hours aint the desirable shit.. and YES! I have finally gone for my haircut!!!
ok.. I SHALL attempt to post pictures.. LOL! I am not a pro at pictures.. LOL!
This is my colleague's daughter!!! omg... she's an angel.. LOL!
these are the pics of my whole EA booth + hotel pics!! HAHA!!! The legendary Marina Mandarin!! HAHA!!!!! ok la... I have never thought well of that hotel but ya.. HAHA!
Their magnificent lobby... =D
My EA BOOTH @ GCA!!!! =D
and i cooked for these 3 SAC angels.. LOL!!!!
Power mahjong after that... LOL!!! omg and i swear its the longest mahjong session for 1 round ever.. HAHA!!!!
Ok I shall end here.. LOL!!!
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2:07 AM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
LAST NIGHT!!!!
popped by phuture for a while.. Cause i thought of doing some "di ban dong zuo". BUT!!! so many botaks... zZz ULTRA SIANS!!!!
Became a good boy and went back before 2am. LOL! and i reached only at 12 midnight as usual. LOL! Would be gg again next wed as sec sch gathering.. zZz.. LOL! nvm... HAHA!
28th is the most anticipated day... WOOHOOO!!!!!!
I amenjoyin life w/o army.... and dun worry... i wun step inside a club without hair... =D
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3:53 PM
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
DANG! I can't believe that so many of my peers are getting married here and there. The worst thing is that only 2 of them was cause of a shotgun.
Probably its my perspective but ain't it too early to settle down for those who married (with the exception of those shotguns)? A few names would be with Shan, Veron, Cleo, etc.
Life is seriously too short. I do totally agree that it is beautiful to be tied down with the person whom you love with permanantly. But I do beg to differ with it being at such a young age. Some of them get married before they are even 20. The oldest of the batch actually got married at 22. I am honestly shocked by everything.
Do they have the financial capability to survive? Would they truly be happy? Would they experience lots of the stuffs one can only experience once in their pre-adult years? I can't say that I feel sad/whatever. I can only say that I am shocked. I can only wish them the best for the future yet I feel a sense of fear towards the thought of marriage at such a tender age.
Just some food for thought.... Oh... My... God...
Kamisama, mou sukoshi dake.
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4:20 PM
My new blog song.. =] Elliott Yamin's Wait for you.. =D
I never felt nothing in the world like this before.
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door.
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone.
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance.
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand.
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face.
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide.
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside.
This is not how you want it to be.
So baby I will wait for you.
Cause I don’t know what else I can do.
Don’t tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life.
Baby I will wait for you.
If you think I find it just ain’t true.
I really need you in my life.
No matter what I have to do.
I’ll wait for you.
Been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy.
How can you walk away(When) Everything stays the same.
I just can’t do it baby.
What will it take to make you come back.
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that.
Why can’t you look at me? You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying.
Baby why can’t we just start all over again.
Get it back to the way it was.
If you give me a chance I can love you right.
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough.
So baby I will wait for you.
Cause I don’t know what else I can do.
Don’t tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life.
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I find it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life.
No matter what I have to do.
I’ll wait for you..
So why does your pride make you run and hide.
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside.
That is not how you want it to be.
Baby I will wait for you.
Baby I will wait for you.
If it’s the last thing I do.
Baby I will wait for you.
Cause I don’t know what else I can do.
Don’t tell me I ran out of time.
If it takes the rest of my life.
Baby I will wait for youIf you think I find it just ain’t true.
I really need you in my life.
No matter what I have to do.
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …
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12:09 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
My heart is physically hurting these days. Shit.
I dun wanna take my medicine anymore. damn!
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10:10 AM
These are the materialistic items I have acquired in the past 2 months. =]
1. Samsung 32 inch plasma tv.
2. Samsung home theatre system
3. Samsung DVD player
4. Sony Playstation 2
5. Sony Playstation 3
6. Samsung Ultra edition 12.1
7. Sony PSP version 2
8. AX top
Next up,
1. Change my wardrobe contents.. LOL!
damn... I really spend too much!! ARGH!!
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9:50 AM
Friday, September 07, 2007
Don't look back..
Don't regret..
Time's falling out of these hands, I'll let you leave me..
Call when you're back home. Cause I'll wait inside your soul. All the light to bless your way. Don't be afraid.. Cause I'll be your home.
In this time. In this place. This moment is all we have. And tomorrow we never know. Every precious time. Let it go somewhere away. You will learn, and you'll love. Forgive the past. And you can move on. All the distance. You've come to a place. Then you see that your home is away. Now the sun is rising. Lighting up your sky again brightly.
Every precious time. Let it go somewhere away. You will learn, and you'll love. Forgive the past. Call when your back home. Cause I'll wait inside your soul. Wherever you go. Whatever you see. I'll be a good place.
And I'll be your home...
Finally, its over. Thanks Nicole for the memories... =]
I think I can only be like a bird, forever happy and free...
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3:24 PM
Thursday, September 06, 2007
dammit... i THINK i can go be superman or sth.. so busy still go club... LOL!
anywho, I AM DAMN BUSY LA!!!!!
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5:18 PM
Monday, September 03, 2007
Its been some time since I really had some time to chill and relax by myself... some time to reminisce on the stuffs I have been doing recently... TO be honest, Time really flies after graduation... No longer are the days of slacking ard at sch, etc.
However, WOrk is what I need to generate cash... Cash to realize my materialistic dreams... I do realize that I am quite the spendthrift. But my morale in life would be the usual quote: Life is short, JUZ WHACK! =D
But when will life ever be not short?
My ans: NEVER
Even eternity has a limit... Limit to complete everything there is to complete... HUmans rarely attain a level of self-actualization and fulfilment... Humans are greedy by nature... Once we realize a level of status, we would always thirst for more... An example would be if you have travelled the world, you wouldwant to travel to the moon...
Been quite pissed at my lifespan right now.. I know I only have a few years left compared to lots of people's tens of years... Why does it have to be like that? I look like some kinda drug addict that takes so many god damned pills prescribed by Tan Tock Seng.. It seriously sucks... seriously... I still have so much more I have yet to experience.. Tho probably noone would really realize or care.. But its alright... I kinda anticipate it... Been 2 months since I last had a relapse. Its getting worser... But probably, my desire to live would be my only fire that would keep me going... I really wanna experience more there is to life...
On a lighter note, I have been finally able to shake offsome of my piano rust... I am kinda learning again how to play neyo's Because of you... LOL!
Been doin some soul searching on Sunday... I never realized that I could be quite scary sometimes... I was lookin at the mirror as I was emo-ing randomly.... Came from my balcony and wanted to wash my face.... Suddenly, I kinda saw red eyes from my reflection.... I really gt kinda freaked out.... But it was gone the next moment i blinked my eye... Now thats scary... shit... I just hope its some haullucination... Probably I've been too stressed recently....
The rainy season has just started again and I am constantly looking outside into the midst of the raindrops.. As always, memories came back to haunt me again... Somehow, I can't just forget abt Rachel for some reason.. Everytime I thought i could forgetabt her, she comes back and the flames are rekindled in our hearts... But I must realize one thing.. We are too similar.. Everytime she comes back, She'd spend a few nights at my place as usual.. and if it rains, we'd just embrace in each other's arms... Somehow, the rain kinda represents us... Our firsts always occur at rainy days...
First question, First contact, bla bla bla, you get the picture... If you ask why we broke up, We never broke up officially... She just had to go to Canada... I couldonly return to Tokyo.. 2 ends of the world... No relationship could ever work probably... Have never seen one like this work before.
Been Listening to Because of You and Apologize by Timbaland.. Perfect on a rainy day.. Perfect to just lay on my bed and think of her... Thats for Because of You
The song, Apologize would be more for thinkin up how to make up for some stuffs that I did. But I guess its kinda impossible to do so at this point of time.
Would be moving in for my major exhibition soon. 48 hours straight with rest @ Pan Pacific Hotel and maybe clubbing on Wed... yep... Sometimes I just wanna breakaway...
I will update soon and probably post another mini story... Have penned down some inspirations recently.. yep... soon..
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6:40 PM
