Wednesday, May 31, 2006
MY LETTER E GT PROB SIA!!! SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so dead!!!!!!!!!!!! argH!!!!!!!!!!!!
lalala...... here's a song for every one to enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah
Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be
That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio
Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?
Mesmerized within time...
9:14 AM
Unveiling!!! the POWER of a 3 megapixel camera... =D ITS PICTURE TIME!!!!
WAHAHAHA!!!!!! this is the picture of ME AND WEI QIAN!!!!!
Ok... for today's lecture... i have brought to you 3 pictures... how do you take a picture gracefully... with a boy changing....
RULE NUMBER 1!! PLS LOOK FORWARD INTO THE CAMERA!!!!!!! DUN LOOK DOWN!!!!!
Rule number 2!!! AS I SAID!!! LOOK STRAUGHT KIMBERLY!!! OTHERWISE NO TOILET BOWL FOR YOU TONIGHT!!!!
Ah.... liddat correct... SUI LA KIMBERLY!!! I GIVE YOU TOILET BOWL TONIGHT!!
I'm a bit depressed and high now... so ya.. LOL!!
Mesmerized within time...
12:13 AM
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Went to watch X-Men 4: The last stand... LOL!!! its a damn nice movie!!!
Was quite a long and short day today... basically, woke up, make breakfast, then sth happened!!!!! then went to sch!!!! wah lau!!! everybody is like taking 27 can!!! met everyone at the bus stop to school then we went on to PARTY!!! =D no la... damn suay lor!!! the TP bus closed its door on ME!!!!nvr die before issit!!! NICHOLAS IS ANGRY NOW HOR!!!! I SUE YOUR ASS TILL YOU TNG KOR ZHAO THE WHOLE OF SINGAPORE YOU KNOW AH!!! This is called negative reinforcement which is the best when dealing with negative behaviour... THIS IS WHAT I HAVE LEARNED IN ORG BEH!!!! =D steady...
OH YES!!! went to class, saw JAYCEE!!!! aw... we wore adidas jacket some more... so touching.. LOL!!! but they say hers is imitation... OOPS!! =X nvm la... she also adidas supporter.. and also a LIM!!! =D
Went for Bus Ent tutorial then for Org Beh lecture... Slept in class as usual then went off for lunch wif JAYCEE, peiru, rozy and christine... we danced and do salsa dance in the queue while waiting for the salad bar auntie to call us....
After lunch, i had to rush off to take 5 with Jaycee then i chiong go biz park buy one fish burger, one kahlet one, one mineral water and one minute maid lemonade for Mr Lee tat ming aka my DPD group proj leader.... Being a good underling, i followed his requests and bought his stuff@!!!! but he complained that my burger was too HOT to swallow...
meeting then meeting then meeting with hai dai quan and ji go pa in between is really fun with my current groupmates... LOL!!! ok... zi high... not much la.. then went on to biz park where they had their 2nd round of food... SAW WEI QIAN AND JASMINE KOH!!! LONG TIME NO SEE SIA!!! my favorite classmates... LOL!!! crapped a lot and we relived stupid and funny school times while 8guaing about our fellow 4 Diligence classmates!! OOPS!!! but it was fun... really fun.. =D
Went on to slack wif dan at BSC room for a while before rushing to meet boon... dragged down to LEGALAB to find a boy named kimberly cause he was rushing his powerpoint presentation... Slacked and slacked and friendster and friendster... THEN!!!! shep came in.....
HE STORMED INTO THE LAB and said...
THIS LAB IS MEANT MAINLY FOR LAW AND MANAGEMENT STUDENTS... WE HAVE THE SOLE RIGHT TO ASK STUDENTS FROM COURSES ESP HTM TO F*CK OFF!!! Of course he was joking... but the funniest thing was... when he thought the lab was full.. there were 3 empty coms behind him... -_____-####
Did some more breakdance with Shep, Alan and Kimberly before meeting BOON and off to GV!!!!!
Da bao pastamania... but sth damn funny happened... this JC gal stood beside me... SHE THOUGHT THE QUEUE WAS THERE!!! LOL!!! then nvm... she went over... made her order... then when she came back... i apologized for giving her the wrong impression which is sth i can do extremely well btw... She replied with a pair of mesmerizing eyes!!! LOL!!!! oh well... chiong to GV... collect free popcorn from Joanne Tan.. another HAO LI HAI clan member... then OFF TO X MEN 3!!!!!
lets talk about the movie.... spoilers.....
NO LA!!! i not so evil... bao toh everything out... Anywho, accompanied the boy kimberly for shopping his formal wear from G2000.... Pics at next entry... i wanna faster make till entry 100 ah.. LOL!!!!
Then came back home.... bathe... pang sai.... then now blogging... OH WELL>>> LOTSA THINGS HAVEN FINISH YET!!! AH!!!!!!!!
Mesmerized within time...
11:53 PM
Monday, May 29, 2006
Great... Double post....
Luck aint doing well recently... Bad thing cause i really depend a lot on luck... But anywho,
My dad is gonna ki siao again cause he wants my N80... Bad....
physically breaking down... Think my body's at its limit at 4 hours of slp a day...
Brain not functioning...
I think i really need a break... from it all....
Mesmerized within time...
11:00 PM
To express your love for one is indeed a challenging thing to many. This is especially so if you know that your friendship would be affected upon this fateful confession. Yet, many still do take the risk and express their love out to those whom they feel for. I am one of those whom have yet to fully reach out to that stage of confession yet.
A few days ago, i was at the bus on my way home from work, feasting on some mushroom swiss and slurping in a little bit of Sprite, I suddenly pictured images of certain scenarios which would be just so awesome! Certain moments which couples would just die to experience, such as the sunrise in Sydney, is a truly miraculous and impactful moment which is unforgettable following a kiss. The thoughts, followed with the beautiful ride through Bukit timah was indeed a complementing sight to see. I then remembered a time when i was at East coast during a chalet, where everybody went to the beach that morning to feast their eyes on the spectacular view of the sunrise. The feeling was absolutely awesome. With the morning breeze just blowing past your face like the feeling of silk on your skin, and the rays of the sunlight shining onto you, a feeling of you being a newborn was once again, present. But the saddest thing was the lack of something, something special and unique. I had lacked "her". At that point of time, i was not really interested into going into real relationships and mostly went for flings which ended up quite nicely for me. However, at this stage of life, i believe i am getting my retribution where I sincerely find it hard to find a true and stable relationship.
I do remember some people judge me based on my external personality. Yes, i do agree i am extremely loud and too hyper at times, which is a very bad fault of mine. However, what they do not know until they know me that i am actually a person whose true character fades away from that personality. I can be really serious when i need to be, though people still do laugh at that fact, but i still do try and be myself. I have since been less noisy and hyper as compared to before, the reason mainly due to that there is no more orientation camp and that i do not want to attract unwanted attention.
2 nights ago, i had a wierd dream about her. Ironically, i have, as a goodnight message, told people to dream of me. However, i have dreamt of her in this case. People around me say, you dream of who is in your heart, others say that dreams are the opposite of reality. Being a dream, just enjoy it while it lasts, or not. Dreams come true, sometimes. Just accept it as it comes by. Acceptance seems simple to find. But, try as I might, it eludes me in every possible place. Is this how it will be forever till I die? I am a thousand dreams away from waking up. And, when I do they will be forgotten. Even the best ones where I was not alone.
I had actually noticed her since the start of it all, but i somehow remained quiet about the feelings that were going through my head. Another case during that time had strayed me away temporarily from her. But now, the feeling is somehow back, and had become stronger. I sometimes think if it is possible. I sometimes think if it could be real. I sometimes just hope. I sometimes just pray. i believe this is really the person whom i could finally be serious about. i hope everything would work out like it could. I would just wait and pray.......
I'll be waiting for you.....
Mesmerized within time...
10:22 PM
Monday, May 22, 2006
Presenting.. McDonald's NEW BANANA MILKSHAKE!!!!
DAMN NICE!!!!!! ok la... Went to raffles hotel for interview today.... I think i should be able to get the job... They said that my exerience is self explainatory... LOL!!!! ok.. Steady la... like that i can move onto get my dream job at the Grand Copthorne waterfront!! !LOL!!!! =D
Would be making a nice sandwich for her tmr.. LOL!! so sweet... =D
Mesmerized within time...
9:56 PM
Mag has just asked me to link her... so here it goes...
MaRkIe`-s------->Magdalene------>LiNK!!!!!! =D
Another random thought... =P
Mesmerized within time...
9:53 PM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Something completely random....
This is a story about a banana named Banana... with a sec 1 standard english.. LOL!!!
Banana had an interesting life as a banana... hanging on a tree and occasionally have some shit landed on it... but that's all right! cause banana like it a lot... The days passed by and as more shit landed on it... with the rain washing it away... Banana became bored.. it wanted something more exciting... it wanted another... BANANA...
But a catastrophe happened... THE BANANA was harvested from the farmer and then packaged and sold to the supermarkets! During which, the Banana had been cut off from the main body... the Banana was screaming and writhing in pain! It has been seperated from its rambutans as the tree was a hybrid and special tree which could grow rambutans and Banana at the same time! During the time when it was cut off, the Banana has flashbacks of its memorable past. With Shit Dropping on it and the wind blowing against it and the thorns from the Rambutan when the wind was blowing strongly at the BANANA.
the Banana had fainted due to the extreme pain during the process. But it had soon woke up to the view of so many other Bananas in a dark room with it! Technically, there was a crate in which the bananas were stored in. Banana was so scared upon seeing so many dead Bananas beside it! Soon, the crate opened up and it had soon saw the light of the outside world. Being extremely scared, the Banana was stunned and was motionless even though it had the chance to run away. But even so, it could not cause it does not have its rambutans anymore!
It had been at the top of the Banana pile at the supermarket. Many people came buy.. from grumpy grandma's to unknown transexuals to Banana lickers. the Banana had been praying for a beautiful girl to pick him up so at least he would not die in the saddest way.
His dreams finally came true when a beautiful girl in a yellow dress approached him and touched him. Next, he became even more estatic when she had grabbed him and put him on her basket. A few hours later passed and the girl reached home. She had taken the Banana out and took off the peel. She then proceeded to lick it and the Banana felt that it was the happiest Banana in the world! However, soon, His fantasy became a nightmare when she then proceeded to BLEND the Banana into a BANANA milkshake..
A few mins later... we observe a mins of silence as the sound of the blender was heard... REST IN PEACE BANANA!!! WE MISS YOU!!!! =(
Mesmerized within time...
1:04 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006
This is an update... I WANNA KI SIAO LIAO!!!!!
PROJS!!!! WORK!!!! MY UPCOMING CONCERTS!!!! MY TOILET!!!!
in short, i juz wanna slp... damN!!!!
This is what i bought for her... =D Guess what it is?!?!?! LOL!!!!
Mesmerized within time...
11:33 PM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Ok... my luck is really going for the worse.. i am SERIOUS LA!!!! i cant joke anymore le la... especially i have lost so many precious stuff... memories... and even 2 people...
Was Junhong's Bday today... Happy 18th Bday!!! but never really joined in the fun.. really sorry!!! was not really in the mood also.... cut my hair today... but the end result was shitty... SIAN!!!!
Sometimes i realize i am a lil fake... as i always hide my emotions within me... not telling others about the real thing... Chilled and destressed for a while today... not really in the mood to do anything now.. dammit!!!! i am really exhausted and tired of everything that has been happening recently that i wanna end everything... even myself... but i know i cant... i really wanna let some of my emotions out but i cant seem to do so... I could only put on a smiling face that does not seem to real at times tho i am smiling and just keep all of my emotions within me... its really sucky... it is...
I suddenly have the feeling of just writing songs and stories again... had some inspirations just now... even thought of the music accompaniment...
Not sure if i could even be myself tmr... but i shall try to have a good chillout session with a very good friend this wed... hopefully she is able to make it.. =D Have quite a lot of things to unlock to her... seriously... the things piling up inside my mind is really making me go nuts....
Sometimes i just wanna sit away and cry my heart out... but my grandma wanted me to put on a smiling face no matter what the reason... never ever let yourself affect other people's mood... that was what she wanted me to do... I shall do it... But sometimes its really painful and excruciating... Especially all that i've been through... i'm scared... i'm really scared of what tmr holds for me... i'm seriously terrified...
Mesmerized within time...
2:21 AM
Monday, May 01, 2006
Well, its been since like dunno how many months since i have last updated!!! well, blogger screwed up on me and i cant log in!!!!
School finally started!!! omg... but i still do not know who are my classmates!!! dammit!!!! i only know my class have 9 guys!! LOL!!! A MIRACLE ESPECIALLY FOR HTM!!! but anywho, that is not the concern... Well, i\went for the SIP lecture yesterday and i suddenly realized that DAMMIT!!! I AM GONNA GRADUATE!!!! sadded... seems like i have not really experienced poly life till this year... after attending the week 0 orientation and the FO's... Well, been slogging my life during Year 1 in a place called Carlton Hotel... but at least, i hope everything will turn out coolz... seriously...
School work is really mounting high despite the slack timetable we have... However, this is not the time to be worrying and complaining!!! i still have the stupid Business enterpreneurship assignments and my SIP resume to complete!!!! the competition is really heating up!!!! Well, i guess i shall stick with hotels as i do notice that a lot of people are going into events....
Not much self confidence in myself lately... I THINK I SHOULD STOP CALLING MYSELF Xie Ting Feng ALR!!! sadded... really sadded... Just hope that everything will work out somehow like it did in the past... Just too much to think about now... too much... sometimes i really hope my short life would end sooner.... so that i would not need to worry about all of these... and gain back the lost sleep that i nEED!!!!!
I have a new inspiration for another story... hope everything works out well....
PHOTO TIME!!!!
Mesmerized within time...
2:50 AM
