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Friday, October 05, 2007

So what am i supposed to do now?

Its tiring to hold everything together. Tiring to try to maintain everything. I guess my room is my only sanctuary within my house. The living room aint so warm as before Everyone leads their own lives. I'm so tired of everything that I have chosen to live by myself. Tired, yet I work myself out to fatigue and push my limits further than my body can take. Yet, I still managed to pull it through. There is nothing that can't be accomplished if you would just only try. Just an effort.

But I have met a roadblock. Indeed, the past constantly comes back. I still can't forget her. But I can now. However, the motivational factor ain't gonna happen just like that....

I can only keep on trying. I can only keep on waiting. I can only keep on hoping.

Just as the song of "Kirara" goes, just as how the melody of "Wish to Wish" goes, just as how the lullaby of "Like the Wind" goes, my heart would just follow accordingly. My soul wishes to return back to Japan. But my heart is reluctant. Reluctant because of one person.

If only I could turn back the hands of time and move to Tokyo after high school, I wonder how different my life would be? Probably a composer by now? Probably. Just Probably.

Perhaps I put my trust too easily in people. I sincerely detest weaknesses. Especially that of my own.

Onto another chapter of my life. Though I see the end coming, I still feel like putting so many more chapters into it. God, please give me more time.

Mesmerized within time...
12:08 AM