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Sunday, June 24, 2007

3 years had gone by.... 31st May 2004 was when I had last saw her. Memories have come back to haunt me again. Despite countless attempts to forget everything, what you truly desire to forget, just comes back killing every hope there is.


We had yesterday to ourselves. Went to our fave place. Just the two of us. There were tears and there was laughter. There was intimacy and there was silence. However, as of now, she has left back for where she is supposed to be.

Moving back today. I have met yet another, Shireen is her name. 23 years old. She really shared the same chemistry as I used to have for her. Fuck me now for I am seriously confused.

I really missed the days when I could just go to my sanctuary by myself and create works of art and music. The days when I was, free....

The key word now is "was".


On another note, finally, I would be ending my poly life at the end of this month. How I wanna gaze up into the skies and reminisce on the peacefulness that I have. The serenity that we have for the moment before we kill ourselves with our own pollution and wars. I am really thankful to be in Singapore where I do not have to worry about natural disasters as of Tokyo, wars of America, etc. However sometimes, I just want to relax in eternal peace. Just close my eyes and sleep.

Mesmerized within time...
7:01 PM


Thursday, June 14, 2007

It started out as just pure simple job interaction....

It then progressed onto something much more....

She is 25... I am 19....

I did sth i should not have done.... I anticipate my heart coming down onto me....

IF only I did not try to play.... did not try to gaze into her eyes..... I just got back home from her place...

Only to find out now that I am actually quite heartless and not think about the consequences.....

Luckily I am ending my attachment....

To You: I'm really sorry for playing with your feelings... I know no amount of punishment is enough.... I'm really sorry....



Why does it all have to start again? shit! Am damn irritated with myself...

Mesmerized within time...
1:04 AM