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Monday, January 29, 2007

just to set the record straight... no tears fell...

the timing sequence of everything was indeed screwed... actions speak louder than words...

Mesmerized within time...
12:39 PM


Thursday, January 25, 2007

I am damn sick and tired of all thats going around... But the fact stands... My conscience is fucking clear... I never ever cheated on any girl especially for my previous gf... Loads of accusations claiming that I FLIRTED or went after girls when i was together with her is utter bullshit... Just show me your fucking face and tell me who was the "supposed" gal I "flirted" with... Get her damned face in front of me and give me any proof that I did those cheating stuffs...

Let me get this point clear... I ADMIT i was flirtatious before... I FUCKING ADMIT that point... However, that was in the past... But whenever i got attached in relationships... ESPECIALLY THE PREVIOUS ONE... I NEVER EVEN TOUCHED ANY OTHER GIRL... People claim that I had an affair with some girl during the period of October... AND EVEN COOK FOR HER!!! Well, I would like you to show me who that "person" is! And i will say that your bloody accusation is lame and dumb.... Why??

THE ONLY GIRL WHO I WENT OUT ALONE WITH WAS KIMBERLY CHEW... BUT SHE IS MY BROTHER FOR GOD'S SAKE!!! YOU KNOW THAT!!!!! I never even complained or even said a thing when you were always with your guy friends...

1) I was having my SIP which had working hours of 10am-2am every bloody day....
2) I broke my leg during that fateful month...
3) She was with me ALL ALONG...

These are physical facts that needs no explanation and are a direct rebuttal to those accusations... Now, What do YOU have to say...

People have said that i go for only looks.. Then pls tell me... was SHE physically attractive at all? NO! She knows that better than anyone else... You have asked if i have a conscience or not... I do have it... And you have asked if we could try one more time... But especially after what has happened... Never... I dun wanna try giving myself more pain with forced emotions anymore... Its damn tired... Please... I am also facing a lot of shit everywhere... I have told you everything thats going on...

I ADMIT that this decision was quite a selfish decision... But you DO know the untold reasons why... However, despite the repeated explanations of the situation... YOU STILL DO NOT UNDERSTAND THE SITUATION AT THAT POINT OF TIME... The reason to why i dun wanna say all of those reasons that day is cause i dun wan others to pity me.. You know that... I am really disappointed in you for not even saying anything and even agreeing to those fake rumours that you know weren't true at all... Only to see you coming back and apologizing profusely for nt even saying anything... You knew how disappointed I was especially as I was looking at you all along...

Now, you can enjoy and bask in your glory that has been created... at my expense...

I am so bloody tired of everything... But its alright... I shall disappear... Goodbye forever..

Mesmerized within time...
1:30 AM


Monday, January 22, 2007

Finally! i'm gonna update after a month.... Lotsa stuff has happened... Lotsa frustrations, misery as well as happiness and laughters! The dawn of 2007 has indeed gave me a terrifying introduction to the next stage of my life... I just dun wanna fall now... so, PLS STOP GIVING ME HEART PAINS!!! LOL!!!

Even the best fall down sometimes... even the stars refuse to shine sometimes... I'm sometimes tired of trying... tired of thinking... But i will perservere on... Though i really don't know how long I can last... yup...

Somehow, i wish i could just sleep without waking up...

Mesmerized within time...
2:47 AM