My inner sanctum.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

What goes around comes around... What goes up must come down.... I forgive... but i never ever will forget...

Mesmerized within time...

6:51 PM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Honestly, i think i am wasting my time on SIP.. LOL!!! basically, i kinda know where i wanna go le... SALES AND MARKETING!!! LOL!!! dammit.. i just love doing PR.. HAHA!!!!

by the way... your hair does not matter... =) I am fond of it!!!! LOL!!!!

limbei wanna dye hair to maybe my sem 2 colour liao... LOL!!! SONG BO!?!?!?

Mesmerized within time...

3:16 AM

Saturday, October 07, 2006

If you haven't changed your mind,
I want you to be by my side...
Tonight...

I was tired of acting strong
I was too young Everytime I think about you baby
Now I can tell you that I miss you
It is hard to say I'm sorry

For instance, I want to sing this song
not for someone else, but for you
The endless story continues into this radiance
I always want to tell you always, forever

Memories of our time together
don't disappear, they stay like this, they don't go away

Beginning to melt warmly & make certain,
the drops of kindness spread on my chest
I'm missin' you so much that I'm sad
Don't let go of my hand upon yours

For instance, if the wish comes true,
I want to sing this song for you again
The endless story with an endless love
tell me why tell me always & forever

Mesmerized within time...

2:37 AM

Friday, October 06, 2006

The rain has not stopped raining for the past week. So did the people who knew him. Shock was still present amidst the cold and dark sky as the world, and him witnessed what turned out to be the heaviest rainy season of the millenium. Fortunately, most people were not really concerned as the tax that they had paid, has seemingly paid off with the efficient and smooth drainage network that the country had.

The rain had been a symbol of his inner thoughts and feelings. Feelings which were kept inside and thoughts that dared not enter the outskirts of the world outside of his mind. These were thoughts and emotions that were kept inside of him since he had witnessed the glimmering light of the sun. Bearing these memories, the people around him gathered in shock and sorrow even till today as everyone would express out a last goodbye to him as the earth was piled up onto his coffin.

It was only the previous week where he had been there, smiling and standing up firmly with so much to hold onto life. Life was without a doubt, incomplete without her. She had given him so much to live onto. He had also promised to live on for so much longer so that they would grow old together. However, exactly today, a week ago, he had desperately given up that promise in a losing fight against the grim reaper. Fate has it that nothing can be changed. Destiny on the other hand allows one to believe that one can actually change fate with their minds and also with their physical limits.

It was then, when he had suddenly fainted at the spot and never woke up again. His heart had stopped beating and his breathing had stopped instantly. Nobody knew exactly what happened. Even the doctors. However, it had appeared as if he had been expecting that to happen.

The entire family stood shocked and were stunned with utter disbelief that his physical limits were reached so soon. An event which stunned even himself, let alone her. He had been extremely optimistic. Even the doctor which he has consulted with was also optimistic. However, Fate has changed every single thing. Now, they only wish for him to enjoy a time of eternity with our holy father. Emotions were running high and everywhere along with the tears that has been shed for him.

A few days later, his parents and her were packing his room so that his precious belongings could be placed beside him. However, a stunning fact had shocked them and left them crying even harder for him.

The letter was written in a matter like this.

Dear mum and dad,

I'm really sorry for being such an unfilial son and being so uncaring about so many things. I really am blessed to have the both of you as my parents and it has been and honor and pleasure to play the role of your son. I really want to make it up to you formy early departure. Thus, i have left some money for you in my bank account. I know its worthless compared to a person's life and quite little for long term use, but let me do this to make it up as much to you as possible. This would be probably the last thing that i could do for you. Dad, Mum, I love you. I will miss you for eternity. I am really really apologetic and sorry for being so useless. But mum, Dad, you will forever be in my heart and my memories.

Written sincerely, your son.

Upon hearing this, his parents were in shock and stunned. However, upon discovering this letter, they had noticed an attachment together with it. This letter, is for her.......................................................

*to be continued!!! LOL!!!!

i gotta work tmr la!!!! LOL!!!! will continue soon!

Mesmerized within time...

3:01 AM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

ITS TIME TO START ON MY NOVEL AGAIN!!! =D

but let me do it on a sunday!!! LOL!!! dammit... work is really damn busy la!!! classroom session coming up on this sat!!! hope everything will be cool!!! =D

Now, i truly know where i wanna go... *not too far off from what i intended to do!! =D

Mesmerized within time...

3:28 AM